Clean(ish) Fifteen

May 20, 2015
"So I thought I would be good and make my coffee at home this morning instead of spending money and calories at Starbucks. It's never the same but it was good enough so I felt pretty proud of myself. Of course as soon as I get to work all of my coworkers start clamoring for a "drug run" to Starbucks and my willpower crumbles instantly. Instead of opting for a tea or anything remotely resembling "healthy" I go for sugary coffee crack (at least I got a small... right?). I'm not sure what divine intervention nudged me to look at the bottom of my iced latté when I got it but I did and I found these awful white curd looking things that weren't dissolving. They just sat at the bottom of my cup and I was so grossed out I refused to drink it.
All I could think about was how, if I had gotten my normal drink (which is either blended or hot and therefore in a non-clear cup) I would have consumed the nasty white curd things and never would have been the wiser. And then it hit me - WHAT THE HECK AM I PUTTING INTO MY BODY?! That's disgusting!! Why would I want to do that?! I think that I'm going to start a reward system with myself. Every 15 days without artificial sugar and chemicals and fast food I get to treat myself to something special. So basically I just have to eat super clean and I get rewarded for it. Not too bad right? My first reward is going to be a massage."

May 21, 2015
"Whose idea was it to be healthy and why do they want to kill me?! Day one of this detox thing has kicked my butt and not in a good "that hurt but was awesome" way... more in a "what the hell did I get myself into" kind of way.

So basically I am a week into this and its getting a lot better. The first two days were absolute torture. The sugar-withdrawal headaches and lack of sugar-induced energy made me a suuuuper un-productive employee. For large spans of the day I would just sit and stare at my computer because I literally couldn't convince myself to do otherwise. It's getting easier and I finally have more energy. I cheated a little this weekend and I really cheated today but otherwise I've been doing really well... Honestly I just can't believe I've gone a week without coffee.